Just Another Day, Huh?

Mum comes in, glaring as if someone’s just smashed her favourite bowl overtop of her head.

Just another day.

She’s angry. It’s fine; I smile despite the tears clawing to escape my constricting throat. I’m not letting this be ruined.

Just another day.

Car ride home, small talk is made. My voice is too cheery, I try to tone it down without breaking down. I’m scared her emotions might make her do something reckless on the snowy road.

Just another day.

Memories of past Christmas’ flutter through my brain. Mum’s drunk, dad and her laughing at everything anyone says. You can tell he’s finally happy she’s opening up to him again. He’s not drunk; but I’m not sure he realize she is.

Just another day.

Wake up that night to find mum barfing her guts out on the bathroom floor. Seven year old girl, left pacing in her room, tears streaming down her chubby face as she hears her mum probably dying in the next room. She promises she won’t ever be like this.

Just another day.

Morning rolls around, dad misses Christmas. It’s fine; she’s used to spending birthday’s with babysitters, it’s not like Christmas should be any different. Mum doesn’t even talk, just stares gloomily ahead as the girl and smaller boy open presents, pretending everything’s okay.

After all, it’s just another day isn’t it?

∞ ∞ ∞

{This is just a small reminder that the festive season isn’t necessarily a happy time for everyone, and that’s okay. A lot of the time it means being forced to make small talk with people who don’t respect you for who you are or who hold expectations high above your head, and who generally aren’t exactly the supportive people we seem to think family always is. There’s no reason to feel guilty if you don’t enjoy hanging out with your family; and staying safe should be your fist priority. 

Nevertheless, for those who do have a loving family to support them, (like mine), enjoy it! Family won’t be there forever, and this time of year should really be about spending time with family and having a good time.

Happy holidays everyone!}

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